Hello,
If you are reading this I know two things for sure – one, you can read and two, you have been deceived.
Someone at some point of time has betrayed you, molested your soul, played with you like a puppet and put a dagger in your back.
How did you cope up? Did you hit him hard? Did you start ignoring that person? Is she your wife now?
I stayed ill and unemployed on my bed for one year. That’s my coping mechanism.
We all are in this together.
“I pressed my lips against his ear and whispered again, It’s not your fault. Perhaps this was really the only thing I had ever wanted to say to anyone, and be told.” – Miranda July
When I came back to life, I was exhausted, unable to work without getting unconscious after 55 minutes of continuous work (yes, I checked my watch when I was on the floor).
Then I started again. I was trying to let it go. At one point of time, I think I did.
Now, that’s the point where movies end and there’s no guiding direction from the fiction on how to be a hero.
So then what? When I picked up my work again I couldn’t do it. Laziness and procrastination became my dominant enemies. As you can see, I am not the hero of a movie who stays motivated with a single event. I need reminders and constant push. Some driver needs to whip my cattle mind but not too hard else I’ll be gone for another year.
What do I do now? I value my life. I work hard, harder than I have ever worked before. I put everything that I have in the pursuit. I reached here on the ship of anger.
How?
I didn’t let it go completely. I get angry daily BUT now channelise that energy to my work.
Forgive the person, never forget the lesson and channelise the anger.
“Anybody can become angry — that is easy, but to be angry with the right person and to the right degree and at the right time and for the right purpose, and in the right way — that is not within everybody’s power and is not easy.” ― Aristotle
At the end, I leave you with one question – where’s your anger now?
Stay a warrior,
Yours,
Sourabh
Being Warrior 